When I Cried I Had These Amazing Women Cry with Me

Weeks leading up to The Haven Retreat I kept hearing “this is going to change your life” and I thought how is this going to fix years of hurt and pain? How can being with people I don’t know, in a place I don’t know sharing my hurt and pain going to help me? Then I met these women and little by little I was changing by my own free will! I learned so much about myself and my body that I never knew the reasons behind.

There were moments at the retreat I was the 7-year-old girl all over again and when I cried I had these amazing women cry with me. When I shared my heart freely it wasn’t unheard.

I came home 14 weeks ago and not only do I see a change in myself but so do my family and friends. I no longer stay awake at night, afraid to sleep, because now I know I am safe. I know I am enough and I can go after my dreams because I am good enough. I’m not afraid to share my story because I am no longer ashamed. It isn’t my shame to hold on to as one of my warrior sisters told me.

I came home from the retreat free! Free from my own brain! Free from my past. I left everything there. I came home with my smile.

Can I say that I don’t have thoughts or feel on edge at times? Yes I do, but I have tools that help me work through it and not keep me stuck inside of my head.

The Haven Retreat saved me!

I found me!

-Crystle, Survivor